Maligaya ka ba ngayong Pasko?

Tuwing magpapasko talaga masaya ang mga tao. lalo na kung maraming regalo at pagkain na pagsasaluhan. :]
Christmas Eve..umiingay talaga ang mga bahay palakasan ng mga sound system.
(ayan na si papa..naghahanap ng saksakan para sa dalawa nyang higanteng speaker!)

Pero para sa akin etong taon na to ay ang pinakamasaya para sa akin.
kasi i got tons of gifts from my family, friends and somebody. :]

Eto nga pala ung listahan ng mga natanggap ko ngayong taon na to:

• This laptop that im using! - Compaq CQ40.
• Philips Bluetooth headset - medyo mahal sya pero its worth it. :]
• A very unique Jansport bag - medyo mahal din pero it will last naman for years.
• Laptop sleeve.
• New clothes. :)
• At ang favorite ko..Vans skateshoes Whip2!
• at meron pang humabol.. A Cybershot Phone! weee! meron na akong mapopost na high res pics!
• at PAP na damit - sino nga ba donor nito? uh..anyway MARAMING SALAMAT!
• wala na eh..sana marami pang humabol na regalo this last month of the year!!

Syempre di darating yan kung di ka nagdadasal...hingi ka lang sa diyos at ikay bibigyan.(oh di ba!? parang bibliya lang. :])
at syempre dapat magbibigay din ako ng regalo para tuloy-tuloy ang blessings.

Ayan yung picture na galing sa bago kong phone..pwede na. :]
 

Ano at kanino kaya mapupunta itong maliit pero valuable na box na ito??
hmmm...

Ang swerte naman nya!
pero honestly first time ko magbigay ng regalo my whole life.(ung di labag sa loob. haha.)

 
Last wish ko sana wala nang manggugulo ng buhay ko.
di ko naman kayo ginugulo eh. (bang!..haha)

Ayan na ang sakit sa dibdib ng bass!!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! MERI KURISMASU!!!

God made my wish come true!

Weeee!!

masayang masaya ako ngayon araw na to!

kasi ginawan ako ng aking guardian ng banner dito sa blog ko! as you can see..grabe iba ung artistry niya sa paggawa ng ng kahit ano sa Photoshop!

Well di ko alam kung bakit pero ang saya ko ngayong araw na to.

pero one thing is for sure..RECEIVE GOD IN YOU, MAKE A WISH AND YOU WILL RECEIVE. :]

pro this day started almost really well until i found out na may sunog daw sa Malibay, Pasay!

1:30pm nung nalaman ko at nagmadali ako agad sa pag kilos 4:30pm kasi yung ballet class namin baka malate ako.

eh mainroad EDSA un so automatic traffic! paglabas ko pa lang sa East Service Road trapik na at wala pang masakyan!

I had to think fast ..and then i realized na merong MRT sa guadalupe! so sumakay ako sa jeep papuntang guadalupe and rode the MRT.

medyo siksikan lang pero ok na yun kaysa mawalan ako ng trabaho.

I thank God na hindi ako na-late pero i feel bad dun sa mga nasunugan.

magpapasko pa naman pero wala silang matitirahan. :[

so anyway di naman talaga natin alam kung ano mangyayari sa atin bukas kaya LETS JUST PRAY AND HOPE FOR THE BETTER. :]

Change

**grabe ilang oras bago ko naisip to..haha
pero nakahanap na din ako ng site na kung saan ay pwede kong ilabas ang sama ng aking loob..
so anyway may ikekwento lang ako tungkol sa FIRST EPIC FAILURE ng buhay ko.


nagumpisa to two weeks ago.(?)
halos araw-araw kami nagaaway.
dahil i met some new girl friends and sometimes going out with them.
i said to her that there's nothing personal and im not gonna replace her or anything pero di sya naniniwala.

tapos Monday, Dec. 14 may lakad ako with that other group.
and i didn't tell even her agad! (how stupid of me. :|)
and bigla syang nagyaya to go out. ang sabi ko may lakad ako. (patay!)
ang sabi nya "and with whom?"
sabi ko *"with those guys"
tapos nun nagaway nanaman kame.
and ended up semi-off (meron bang ganun??)

Tuesday, Dec. 15, di ko alam ang gagawin ko
nagising ako sa ginawa ko and i was so guilty for what i did.

and then nung uwian na pagkatapos ng show she was crying.
for some reason*.
that night I texted her and slowly apologized.

until the next day Dec. 16, she was still mad at me.
And the president our company wants to talk to us.
sya ung naging mali sa mga nangyari pero di ko alam ako din pala yung tatamaan.

At kinabukasan tinatanggap nya na ako ule.
i was so happy!!
and then that night there was a leaked info about us. THAT WAS NOT TRUE. O.o

Dec. 18
she decided to break up with me.
i was like O.o
at first it was like the old times seeing each other, etc.
and then that night after the show..tears fell..damn..ang hirap pala!
tinanong ko sya kung pwede pa ba kame.
the hardest part. NO
that day she really broke my heart.

the next day was our day..supposedly. :(
i was so wasted didnt know what to do.
ang sabi ko sa kanya kausapin nya ako
tinanong ko kung bkit di na pwede kme.
she told me why*.
I still didnt believe her.
she told me to change my ways and become a better person.
at first i refused..but then again..i started thinking again.

I WAS AFRAID TO LOSE HER BUT I DIDNT SHOW ANY ACT OF IT.
AND NOW SHES GONE AND I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START WITHOUT HER
BUT SHE IS WILLING TO HELP ME OUT TO CHANGE. IM HAPPY FOR THAT.
ITS BETTER THAN NOTHING.

tatlong araw na din simula nung mawala siya sa akin.

ang sabi niya we can stay as friends daw.
pero ang hirap talaga..totoo nga ang sinasabi nila..
DI MO MALALAMAN ANG HALAGA NG KUNG ANONG MERON KA HANGGA'T DI ITO NAWAWALA SAYO.

right now..im slowly starting to heal.
"I WILL CHANGE MY WAYS!"
and this is the first step to make things better.**



*di ko na sasabihin kung sino at baket.
**pasensya na at masyadong mahaba..medyo emo kasi ako ngayon. :d